Thoughts That Illuminate


Are you Willing to Learn Something New?

In my last posting I wrote about the moment in my life when my spiritual journey began; when I
focused my attention away from the world and toward the healing of my mind.  This change in
direction rang the bell for freedom and with this action; I entered a new school of learning. This new
school is not the “hard knocks” school where we learn how to survive when the world keeps beating
us down but rather a school whose curriculum is to teach us about our Self.  It seems a bit silly
doesn’t it, that we need to go to school to learn about our self?  But we do!  We have put ourselves
under hypnosis, telling ourselves that we are a separate body that struggles to get our basic needs
met, who gets sick, rejected and attacked. We have been walking around pretending for so long
that now we have to go back to school to relearn what we once already Knew. Today I would like to
ask if you have entered this new school and rung the bell to begin your class.  Have you taken a
seat ready to learn this new curriculum?

You have if you are practicing anything at all that even remotely looks
opposite to what the world
tells you to do to find a sense of peace, happiness and/or connection.  Maybe you are taking just a
few minutes each day to rest your mind from its chaotic thinking and find a place of stillness.  Maybe
you have begun reading books that you never thought you would read, that teach ideas that stretch
your mind to think differently about things.  Maybe you are watching your thoughts throughout the
day and entertaining the idea that they may just be the cause of your distress.  For most of us this
is the intro class that we take. We signed up because we are sick and tired of being sick and tired.  
Two things have happened; we don’t want to be in pain anymore and there has been some
realization that the old way just isn’t working.  When we begin to focus on the inner world and
contemplate and practice new ways to do that we are ready for the next class.

In this next class we learn that we are the choice maker and we are responsible for what we think
and therefore what we experience.  Through many homework assignments we learn that belief
does
equal experience.  We also get in touch with an attribute that we didn’t know we possess.  We learn
of the power of our mind and its ability to make anything that it desires show up in the world of form.  
This class is important in that it introduces you to an aspect of your True Self- a mind that is
creative.  We get in touch with the strength that comes from realizing we are not victims but decision
makers and we begin to find a sense of freedom that comes in relearning that we are powerful
beyond measure.  If you are engaged with any kind of belief work, from manifesting, affirmations, to
releasing old patterns of belief, you are enrolled in this class.  This class has some lures.

It is tempting to want to take this class over and over and not graduate to the next one.  This
temptation reminds me of the lion in the Wizard of Oz getting mesmerized and seduced in the poppy
field.  He hasn’t reached his destination yet (the wizard) but because he is satisfied with pleasurable
feelings he becomes content to stay for awhile.  We all can get stuck thinking that this is the end of
our learning.  Remember what you are in school for. You are relearning about You.  In this class
you have only discovered an aspect of You.  The entire You is not yet fully Known.   You believe
you are still a separate individual. One with a powerful mind; but yet still an individual.

If in this class you have experienced yourself as Love and something else, you know you are still
holding on to a separate identity.  This something else can be ‘failure’, ‘lack’, ‘pain’, ‘aloneness’,  
‘anger/grievance'; anything that indicates there is a ‘you’ that can experience something other than
love.  I refer to this as my “Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde” belief.  I experience myself as two selves; one
holy (at times) and one very unholy.  We cannot be two selves; only one.  If our True Self is One
with God, there can be no individual ‘you’.  Therefore when we are ready to release our
separateness and individuality and to know thy Self as only one Self we enter the next class.  

This class requirement can be met in a moment; a millisecond of time.  All that is required to
graduate is to let go completely our false identity and accept the truth of What we are.  In an instant
all a student has to say is; “I am not that” (ego false identity) and say “I am That” (True Self) and
awaken at once.  But the majority of us will experience this as a slow letting go of all that we think we
are, or the world is or our brother is.   In this class our homework is to bring all aspects of our false
self up for the ‘truth test’. For example, maybe you have felt attacked or victimized.  Who are you
with this idea? You are “one who can be attacked and made to be a weak victim”.  Put this up to the
‘truth test’ and you will see that this is false.  

Your True Self is not weak, cannot be hurt nor made to do anything against its will.  Maybe you
have a chronic back pain.  Who are you with this idea? You are “one who can be in pain”.  Your
True Self cannot be in pain because it only knows itself as Love and Love has no opposites. Maybe
you feel sensitive to your surroundings and need to protect yourself from the world. Who are you
with this idea? You are “one who can be overpowered by the world; one who is weak against the
powerful forces of the world”. Your True Self has dominion over all because you were made in the
Likeness of God.  Can a little mouse (the world) really harm an elephant?  The list goes on and on.
We believe we are our jobs, our successes, our service, our organizational skills, our talents, etc.  
We believe we are our failures, our lack of service, our messiness, and our selfish thoughts.  Our
identity is all tied up in knots.  Our work in this class is to unravel them and let them loose. As we
loosen all false ideas the truth is the only thing that is left.  

This class requires much diligence, commitment and the searching out for all that we hold onto that
seems to speak of our false self.  But the rewards are Heaven.  Yes, in the beginning we might
mourn, resist or experience grief in letting go of all that we thought we were, but when we do, we
experience a depth of peace that we never knew possible, a love that encompasses all things and  
happiness that does not change with the wind.  This experience increases our willingness to give
more and more over for release which leaves space for more and more peace. And before you
know it, we have let go of all that is false and accepted that truth is true. Now we Know our Self
entirely.

It doesn’t matter what class you are taking, or if you are just standing on the front steps wondering if
you should enter.  The Teacher of this school waits patiently for us to decide when we are ready to
take the next step or even enter the building.  The opportunity is not a once in a lifetime offer.  It is
always offered. And we can accept anytime we want.  Even though we enter in an effort to be free of
pain, we find oh so much more upon graduation.  Yes we are free of pain, yes we are peaceful and
happy but we are also the one thing that brings Heaven on earth.  We are Awake.  

Written by: Patti Fields