Thoughts that Illuminate
You Cannot Fail

Over the past month or so I have been uncovering a deep-seeded belief in failure. Although I
saw how this transferred into many experiences of my life, I was lead to see that ultimately
the deeply-rooted belief that was blocking healing was my belief that after all of this spiritual
work, in the end I am going to fail.  Maybe some of you have had this same belief or ones
similar: “I will never get this”, “I don’t have a clue what I’m doing”, “and I will fail to wake up”. If
you have been here, you can attest to the complete devastation that comes when believing
these thoughts.  As convincing as these thoughts are, do not believe them! For you are
closer than you think to the acceptance of truth. We can see this in the intensity in which the
ego is coming out in full-force to save its life!  I would like to share with you how the Holy
Spirit guided me to let go of this idea of failure, in hopes that you too will see that you cannot
fail to make the final choice to recognize the truth of Who you are.

It all began one evening while watching a scene in the movie “I Heart Huckabees”.  Dustin
Hoffman and Lily Tomlin- existential detectives who specialize in finding the universal
interconnectivity of all things, were having a discussion with Jude Law – a marketing
executive in a ‘Walmart’ type chain store, who hired the detectives to find the connection
and meaning behind all the trouble in his life.  After a few weeks of observation, they
presented this answer to him, “You are just not being your Self”.  Agitated that this was their
answer after weeks of detective work, he exclaimed in frustration, “How can I not be
myself?!!!”  The detectives looked at each other with a sparkle in their eye and began to
repeat his question back to him. “How
can you not be your Self?”  “How can you not be
your Self?”, “How can
you not be your Self?”

After the movie I found this thought swirling round and round in my mind.  “How can I not be
my Self? How can I fail to be Who I already am?”  If I already am what I seek to be, how
could I fail?” As I went to sleep that night I asked the Holy Spirit to help me to see how it is
that I cannot fail to be my Self or fail to make the final choice to return home. The Holy Spirit
answered me with this dream.  (Note: The role of the Holy Spirit is being played by “the
mechanic”)

I was driving my car from a friend’s house to a college campus where I was dropping kids
off.  The next stop was home. As I was driving out of the campus, I felt panic as I realized I
didn’t know the way home.  I came to a stop sign where the only choices were to go left or
right.  I paused to gather my thoughts and try to calm the rising fear taking hold of my mind. I
remembered that I had come from the right so I logically concluded that I should not turn
right. I felt a little relief realizing that at least I knew not to go back the way I came.  As I
turned left I saw a gas station up ahead.  At first I was going to pass it and try to navigate the
rest of the way home myself, but quickly realized how much easier it would be if someone
already knew the way.  I pulled into a gas station to ask for directions.  That was the last
thing I remembered.  The next I knew, I was standing in my living room already home.  I had
no idea how I got there.  Standing in the room with me was the mechanic from the gas
station.  I was bewildered and asked, “How did I get home?” He explained to me that he had
navigated the way home for me because he knew the way.  He told me there were a few
glitches along the way, such as running out of gas, but he took care of that by mixing
together lemon juice, sugar and 7-up.  I was amazed at the calmness and confidence in
which he spoke.  I said, “How did you know all of that! Nobody knows how to do that.” I could
not believe my luck! By simply realizing that I needed help and stopping to ask for
directions, I had found someone who not only knew the way but knew how to melt obstacles
effortlessly and get me there with no time passing at all.  My gratitude was overflowing.
Because of the mechanic I had no need to worry, to come up with my own solutions to
“glitches” or figure anything out.  And best of all there was no ‘time’ in which I had to travel to
get home.

Upon waking from this dream, I realized how this all made perfect sense. There are no long
roads full of hard work to return home because we already are home only dreaming of exile.
And as we sleep for awhile, we have a guide who will stay with us, melting away obstacles
and lighting our way through seeming problems to gently wake us up. And when we did
awaken, it would seem like it happened in a blink of an eye with no effort, strain or fear.  I
was shown the simple, fail-proof plan to awaken.  It is fail-proof because we are only
required to make three easy choices:  
#1. Home is where we want to be.
#2. We are willing to let the Holy Spirit be our guide
#3. To remember it’s always best to stop and ask for directions!

Written by: Patti Fields